The mysterious cause-effect of diary keeping is an everlasting curiosity to those who do not keep diaries. Record of trivia? Memorabilia? Do-not-forget-me? For my autobiography?
The third volume of Virginia Woolf's diary provides no more answers for the inquirer than do other diaries. It springs, presumably, from some need to communicate, from some instinct against loneliness, some purgation. It is also (in her case) indisputable evidence that wordsm were to her the beginning, the growing, the maturation,the justification, the healing, the explicable and inexplicable, the reason for her life.
It is hard to imagine anyone else who is so completely, joyously a writer. When she is melancholy she recovers her spirits if she can put her pen to a piece of paper; when she is ill she knows she is two-thirds recovered when she is putting down words in her diary, in letters, in the shaping of a new book.
The five years covered by this volume are years of comparative affluence. Her position as a writer is established -- though she still wonders if she will be celebrated. She is no longer stricken with the old anxiety over reviews or the response of her friends -- though she does wish they would speak out. She often talks of her happiness; her husband is her anchor. "The immense success of our life is, I think, that our treasure is hid away; or rather is in such common things that nothing can touch it. . . . What can trouble this happiness?" The panic of the past -- and of the future -- is rarely mentioned during these years.
Occasionally she attempts to record and understand a state of mind, a perturbation, an episode that has turned sour, but the attempts are fluttering and elusive. She often ventures toward deeper confessions of doubt, but all the reticences of her education, all the cultural proprieties, allow her to end the ventures with ellipses.