I THOUGHT I had forgiven him, but now I wasn't so sure. Through his fraudulent actions, our family had lost a great deal of money. This person, actually a family member himself, had just been released from prison. The next morning, I was going to have to see him. I anguished over the prospect of meeting with him face to face. I was enraged. Yet I knew that there was nothing to be gained from such feelings. Others might agree that all the hurt he had caused justified my resentment of him. But in my heart,
the resentment felt miserable. I was afraid, too. I was afraid that this individual could continue to cause havoc in my life. I felt that he was evil and we were not safe from the harm he could cause.
From past experience, I had learned that I could trust prayer to bring comfort and clear-mindedness. I called a friend, a Christian Scientist, to pray with me and to support my own prayer. I was in desperate need of peace and perspective. I knew they could be gained by turning to God in prayer. I then turned to the Bible, which had been a friend and guide so many times in my life. In it I found a passage in Matthew where Christ Jesus tells his followers, "Love your enemies and adds, "Pray for them which despitefully use you. Wasn't this asking too much? How could I pray for someone who had done such personal, criminal injury? Mary Baker Eddy's book Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures helped me to sort through my fears and concerns.