When you're left off the list
Whenever awards are in the air – most recently it was the Academy Awards – I get to thinking back to a few years ago when I learned something about recognition.
As a screenwriter, I was occasionally part of an arbitration process to determine screen credits. One time, after being left off the list, I felt discouraged and unappreciated.
I knew I needed a more expansive view of things. So I called a friend who is a Christian Science practitioner.
In the middle of my discouraged retelling of events, he broke into my soliloquy and said simply, "Your name is written in heaven."
I didn't know what he was talking about, other than recognizing it as paraphrased from the Bible.
But a moment later – almost in the twinkling of an eye – the words hit me with a bolt of spiritual lightning. This didn't feel like a convenient glossing over of the issue but an opportunity to take a bold look at the truth of who I was in God's eyes.
That afternoon, I looked up the passage in Luke, where the exact words are: "Rejoice, because your names are written in heaven" (10:20). That expanded the idea even further, because use of the plural "names" made me realize I could embrace the other writers – those who hadn't and those who had received screen credit. We were all in God's embrace. And Mary Baker Eddy, who founded Christian Science, confirms this: "Heaven is not a locality, but a divine state of Mind..." ("Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures," p. 291).
My worth had already been established by our Creator. It was as if a light had been shone on where I had been looking for credit all along – more important, where I had been looking for my self-esteem.
I didn't realize what an impact that experience would have over the years. It not only helped during the rest of my career, but continues to be a vital healing force in my daily life whenever I think I am being slighted or unacknowledged.